o0o Inspiration from music & books

Sweet way to start off the day. This and the new amazing magical book I'm reading. Women who run with the wolves.

o0o Happy Hippie Birthday

Today it's my 30thy birthday! And it feels so good. As if now is the time to reap all the seeds I have sown. I feel so blessed right now. Such clarity. I feel the woman in me getting stronger. I feel I'm on the right track. More sure of my visions. I'm so thankful for the precious friends around. For music that moves me fore plans to realise for sex love and rock n roll for me being me, I'm so happy an thankful, because I made it to thirty! I am rich in every possible way.

And since it's my birthday I would like you who read this to give me something. I want you to tell me about other blogs out there. Swedish or english with people like me, like us. With music, and thoughts and pictures and art, with fashion, tattoos, diy-tips. I need an injection in my blogscroll. 

Much Love, Happy Autumn Equinox!

o0o Not in my mind but in my heart

o0o It's my party and I cry if I want to.

A day when all the bad memories run at me like wild horses on a rampage. A day when I question why should I even be alive. What is the point of it all. If I can't feel love. A day when the bully in my head is so mean I'd kill him with my bare hands if I could. It's that kind of day.

o0o Goddess Kali came into town

 I'm mad today. I'm angry. But at least I know why. Sometimes it's good. Someone needs to be angry sometime to make things change. (And if someone is scared of a little Kali ...well..)

 Today I'd like to change this opression of women. I was looking around at Free Peoples homepage yesterday. I guess you call this Bohemian chic style. Which I love BUT. The pantsizes went from 24! to 32. How many do you jknow that has 24 in waist? My smallest I've crawled into I think is 27, when I was 14 and homeless for a while. Now I fit in a 30 and is very pleased with that. But what should I think when the size just above me is the biggest in the whole store. Should I cut off my hipbone to fit. To be a real glamorous hippie? Naaaw I don't think so. Thank goddes I'm almost thirty and know my own worth. 

And I think this shows me a bit on what I want to work with, I want to have a place where young women can come and learn creative stuff so they build another world that doesn't evolve around just men and looks, that gives them a protective enviroment. A loving female enviroment far away from shops and magazines. I want to be a different rolemodel I want to find my own strength, give what I didn't have then. Maybe at least stop one little girl from letting her get sexually assaulted just to get some attention. 

This is a big part of why I choose not to shave myself at the moment.. or have been for the last 3- 4 years. because once you start to change the way you look just to fit in a template of how a "real " woman should be like. (According to media and other  indoctrinated people) of how a beautiful girl looks like (and acts like ) than it easily moves on to something else, something more. And I guess we all have responibility as women, for the young girls looking at us. Just like Kim Kardasian is out there showing it's ok to be proud of your big badonkatrunk I want to be out there saying it's ok to have 30 waist in jeans. It is ok to not shave. You are still being loved and thought of as sexy. I feel a responsibility to show them that this is how women look, this is natural, this is real. It was really hard in Turkey but I fucking did it and I feel so strong now. And fucking proud. I can live without a man so if he doesn't like it then he can go screw someone else. 

How do you feel about this? Is it up to us to be rolemodels? Is it even wrong to encourage girls to be thin.. what do you think?

o0o MellowYellow

I am a LUNA-tic today, so much  crazy energy!  I've crocheted a new headpiece in just a couple of hours. Making silly jokes. Got happy news today. Planning a little weekendtrip to a place where Fraggletrollet and my baby and friends are playing! So sweet.
How are you feeling today? Are you feeli'n it!?
<3 Ellinor

o0o Poetic

Fire in my heart, planted there by the peace. I'm always welcome here, deep inside of me. Holy