o0o Peace love and Ilahinoor

o0o Provocerad till max

2011-10-29T16:57:00.001+02:00

Jag har dem mest tillgivna av katter. Jag undrar hur det kommer sig. Är det jag som gjort dem så eller kom dem till mig för att jag behöver dem och deras ovillkorliga kärlek. Och just när hjärtat spänner sig så kommer en av dem och ställer sig på mitt bröst, masserar bort det onda med sin tass. Buffar försiktigt med nosen, grovhånglar och lägger sig sen på min mage. Eller somnar på min axel som den här gången. Eller på min hand som nu så jag får vänta en stund med att skriva. Jag älskar er min lilla tasstribe, min spinnkör.

Gud ge mig styrka att älska dig just nu, för om jag lyckas med det, lyckas jag älska det allra mörkaste, räddaste inom mig själv och lyckas jag med det så är jag på god väg att bli fri. Jag ser det allt tydligare. Hur andras små finesser att hantera sin ångest går ut över andra, och jag tar ännu ett steg tillbaka och ser att så hanterar även jag min ångest, då när den bara rusar på. Det är inte rätt, men det är så det funkar med mig och med dig. Och om jag kan se det hos dig och jag kan vara lugn om jag inte låter mig provoceras utan talar lugnt om för dig att det där ser jag, utan att döma då kan jag ju sluta döma mig själv. Du vill inte erkänna det för dig själv, förmodligen kastar du glåpord efter mig och försöker provocera mig ännu mer, för om du är mitt inne i det, slipper du känna in din egna ångest, ditt mörker.

Du är inte ond för att du provocerar när det känns som att ångesten inte tystnar annars, du är inte ond för att du trycker ner mig när din ångest trycker ner dig. Det är bara ditt lilla rädda ego, och om vi lyser på varandras otillräckligheter med ett ljus av frid så kommer det bli så mycket lättare att acceptera oss själva, varandra och föra in denna världen - oss själva i en dimension av kärlek. Så ge det en sekunds eftertanke innan du hugger tillbaka när någon hugger på dig och du kommer se vilken frid som öppnar sig.

o0o Evercreating everexpressing

2011-09-26T19:03:00.000+02:00

So. I feel like making a change. Imulsive as I am. Everchanging, evergrowing. It's autumn and a lot of new projects wants to come alive. Therefor I've decided to start over. Over at this place. ---> http://shivapunks.tumblr.com/ Hope you'll join me and share my inspiration. <3 Ellinor

o0o Baba-pants picked by ShivaPunks

2011-09-25T15:51:00.000+02:00

o0o Inspiration from music & books

2011-09-25T11:03:00.000+02:00

Sweet way to start off the day. This and the new amazing magical book I'm reading. Women who run with the wolves.

o0o Happy Hippie Birthday

2011-09-23T13:55:00.000+02:00

Today it's my 30thy birthday! And it feels so good. As if now is the time to reap all the seeds I have sown. I feel so blessed right now. Such clarity. I feel the woman in me getting stronger. I feel I'm on the right track. More sure of my visions. I'm so thankful for the precious friends around. For music that moves me fore plans to realise for sex love and rock n roll for me being me, I'm so happy an thankful, because I made it to thirty! I am rich in every possible way.

And since it's my birthday I would like you who read this to give me something. I want you to tell me about other blogs out there. Swedish or english with people like me, like us. With music, and thoughts and pictures and art, with fashion, tattoos, diy-tips. I need an injection in my blogscroll.

Much Love, Happy Autumn Equinox!

o0o Not in my mind but in my heart

2011-09-22T17:33:00.000+02:00

o0o It's my party and I cry if I want to.

2011-09-15T16:37:00.000+02:00

A day when all the bad memories run at me like wild horses on a rampage. A day when I question why should I even be alive. What is the point of it all. If I can't feel love. A day when the bully in my head is so mean I'd kill him with my bare hands if I could. It's that kind of day.

o0o Material Girl

2011-09-14T16:03:00.001+02:00

This is me in a few material things.
Love my new boots! So0o ShivaPunk.

o0o Goddess Kali came into town

2011-09-13T12:06:00.001+02:00

Woke up after one of those classic nightmares. The one where you drop your teeth you know? I don't know why this is the most common one. But anyhoo just as scary everytime. So thankful to wake up and feel maybe not so perfect teeth but still teeth! I can't believe it's not for free in the swedish healthcare. I mean if you don't have teeth you can't eat and if you can't eat you die. But hey nothing seems to be logical today. The full moon is intense, even my man feels it. On top of that there's a storm!

And I'm mad. I'm angry. But at least I know why. and sometimes it's good. Someone needs to be angry sometime to make things change. (And if someone is scared of a little Kali ...well..)

Today I'd like to change this opression of women. I was looking around at Free Peoples homepage yesterday. I guess you call this Bohemian chic style. Which I love BUT. The pantsizes went from 24! to 32. How many do you jknow that has 24 in waist? My smallest I've crawled into I think is 27, when I was 14 and homeless for a while. Now I fit in a 30 and is very pleased with that. But what should I think when the size just above me is the biggest in the whole store. Should I cut off my hipbone to fit. To be a real glamorous hippie? Naaaw I don't think so. Thank goddes I'm almost thirty and know my own worth.

And I think this shows me a bit on what I want to work with, I want to have a place where young women can come and learn creative stuff so they build another world that doesn't evolve around just men and looks, that gives them a protective enviroment. A loving female enviroment far away from shops and magazines. I want to be a different rolemodel I want to find my own strength, give what I didn't have then. Maybe at least stop one little girl from letting her get sexually assaulted just to get some attention.

This is a big part of why I choose not to shave myself at the moment.. or have been for the last 3- 4 years. because once you start to change the way you look just to fit in a template of how a "real " woman should be like. (According to media and other indoctrinated people) of how a beautiful girl looks like (and acts like ) than it easily moves on to something else, something more. And I guess we all have responibility as women, for the young girls looking at us. Just like Kim Kardasian is out there showing it's ok to be proud of your big badonkatrunk I want to be out there saying it's ok to have 30 waist in jeans. It is ok to not shave. You are still being loved and thought of as sexy. I feel a responsibility to show them that this is how women look, this is natural, this is real. It was really hard in Turkey but I fucking did it and I feel so strong now. And fucking proud. I can live without a man so if he doesn't like it then he can go screw someone else.

How do you feel about this? Is it up to us to be rolemodels? Is it even wrong to encourage girls to be thin.. what do you think?

o0o MellowYellow

2011-09-12T15:00:00.000+02:00

I am a LUNA-tic today, so much crazy energy! I've crocheted a new headpiece in just a couple of hours. Making silly jokes. Got happy news today. Planning a little weekendtrip to a place where Fraggletrollet and my baby and friends are playing! So sweet.
How are you feeling today? Are you feeli'n it!?
<3 Ellinor

o0o Poetic

2011-09-12T07:12:00.000+02:00

Fire in my heart, planted there by the peace. I'm always welcome here, deep inside of me. Holy

o0o Nonconformity

2011-09-09T08:19:00.000+02:00

My whole being is a demonstration of nonconformity
I could never be assimilated
I'd rather be assasinated

Until then I stand strong in my beliefs, this is why I've learned to be alone. Learned to love my own company. So that I would not be afraid to speak my mind, so that I would not be afraid to loose everyone around. So that I would always speak my truth without worrying what they think of me.

And therefor be able to love them even more

Just like this man

o0o Fascism is alive and kicking in my town

2011-09-08T13:44:00.001+02:00

assimilate

Walking in line

all dressed the same

all going to church

all eating meat and potatoes

all speaking swedish all the time

all of us dancing to swedish music

to swedish folk-dance

all of us, all the time
cause a man in brown told us to do so

For me that's poverty.

Fascism is alive and kicking in my country, in my city.

They wan't to assimilate us. The foreigner, we who like foreigners and foreign cultures.

How to stop them?

You can't have a conversation with them it's like talking to a poor greedy little 4-year-old.

Their minds are too small. It's like their stuck in an onedimensional world. And I don't mean them as in themselves but in their beleifs that has become themselves.

On saturday the fascism will stand in my town spreading their propaganda. I want to heal them with love, I want to show them mixed cultures are richness. I want to be able change their minds.

I cried today. This is not the world I want for me or my friends, my future kids.

I don't want to go back.

Should I just let it be? What is my responsibility ? What should I do in this matter. Maybe just meditate, send love to the situation? Or do I act, like the pissed of Human being I also am?

I would like to arrange a carnival with lots of different cultures celebrating together, eating, singing, dancing together. Free, Expressing everyones uniqueness. Whos with me?

On the other hand my favourite traveller-sing&songwriter is also in town this saturday so hopefully he will help spread some love healing and compassion too.

o0o Pure XTC

2011-09-07T13:34:00.000+02:00

o0o Is there anybody in there?

2011-09-06T11:45:00.000+02:00

Ok. I see you, I see that u read but noone says anything. Is it because you agree or is it because I don't seem inviting or what? Let's have a dialogue, not a monologue ;)

You do as you please, and I love you're here no matter what, but please don't be afraid to write something ok!?

A question. Are you suppose to help people to see the bigger picture or should you let them discover it by themself? Can you even help someone to see the bigger picture?

And also. What is loyalty to you? How loyal are you suppose to be to your friends?

Can you hang out with a friend that has hurt another friend? Can you distinguish that easily?

Should you stand up for your friend, or is it up to the friend? Or maybe you just stand up for yourself and your beleifs. After seeing Sons of Anarchy it feels like many people are looking for that kind of loyalty, but it also seems to bring a lot of drama..

I've battled with this for years and I still don't know the answer.

I don't understand much of life today but it doesn't matter, everything is ok. Now i'm gonna check out my 6 little kitten-babies and then off to the mailbox to see if any package has arrived for my new Hobby ShivaPunks. Love Unity Zen ~

I am me and you are me and we are all in this together.

2011-09-05T08:37:00.000+02:00

Tha latest couple of days I've noticed something. I am not as angry as before, and I can see the world in a very much bigger picture.

Before I couldn't handle if someone was angry with me, but now I let them. It doesn't bother me, because I know it's either with them and a distorted picture they have of me or I've pissed them off but that doesn't mean it has to be like that forever, we can probably solve it, or if not, just not hang out for a while.

The world doesn't end.

I And I see so clearly my own insanity. How I before judged without thinking. When in stress and under pressure there is no time, no room for questioning thoughts. So I totally understand people that act the same.

And I'm so blessed being able to go to therapy to learn to think like this, to work with myself and my thoughtpatterns.

Of course I get a bit mad but then I think, hey shes having a hard time, pregnant, no job, no man, stressful as hell. You cant make any decisions then, u probably feel attacked by society and friends that try to help. So u attack back. Every littkle piece of the ego is all u have left. So you defend it even if it means loosing your real pride.

And then she reads this and turn it into that I idolize her. Just because I care and try to understand. and that reallly pisses me off, but hey, in her shoes. I totally understand. And standing in my shoes, being real, I don't have to take that with me. Its as emty as the cheesedoodlespacket beside me.

I got a nasty message today though that got my madness up to the surface. For a while. She reeeeeally knows how to push my buttons but I can choose. I can choose to be mad at this crazy woman whom im unable to talk with without she reading in to things.. anyhoo I can choose to believe her words about me, that I'm crazy and idolizing her just because I try to help her, try to talk things out. But she never answers my questions she run away in her own fantasiy. So whyyy whyy take her image of me, as the truth.

I'm much mor happy with my own picture of me. I have decided. I'm fucking marvellous, amazing, true to my heart, caring, giving. Soo Nothing like that can hurt me no more. You have your image, and I have mine and that is totally ok. But I choose to have people around me that sees me for what I really am. And I believe, I've done nothing wrong even if she tells me so. I believe my liife is good, peaceful and on the right track.

I stick to believe that I'm fucking awesome and I'm happy happy happy. Theres always going to be mad people out there, but my heart knows the truth and just smiles. It's amazing and I'm so blessed to have grown in to this. Thank you.

A trip not s far away from home.

2011-09-03T11:17:00.003+02:00

A round - trip evolving around

myself

I'm always here no matter there or here.

I went on a trip

planned on a route, the one people like me should take

but I ended up strolling up the beach instead

to the beat of the waves

still leading up to the same goal.

I wanted to feel better about myself, I wanted to be able to accept other peoples opinion, yet still holding on to my own. And I did that. I broke through, looking at life in 4D

Last day though was hard, turning 30, shape up? Be regular? Kids, cleaning, a job I hate but feel I just have to do.. for what I don't know.

Eager to please?

Then a traveller showed up, an angel for rebels like me. I didnt recognize him at first, I just knew.
He broke my chain of destructive thoughts. No words. Just by being. And I felt tears of releif running down my cheeks.

I've met him along the way for this particular reason. I'm on the right path.

rebel at heart

the artist

The traveller

He showed me the way back, to me, she who always is, she who is so important, cause noone can be like her and she certainly cant be noone else. and shes just here evolving around herself.

o0o Back from the roads

2011-08-19T11:50:00.002+02:00

Wow, how do I start. I can start by telling you that The oil-pulling program has taken a break due to travels and a hell of a flue. BUT Before I stopped I noticed better gums and easier to breath so I'll start with it again as soon as I can breath through my nose properly again. You should really try it!

But for now I just have to be still, letting this shit come ut, got this flue at Ozora festival. Wow, so many feelings, so much experiences so much lessons to be learned. SO much extatic energy. So spiritual.

View from our camp.

First of all. A girl a bit scared of people goes to a festival with 40 000 freaks! Although I think a trance-festival is the best place to come out of ones shell. A great place to feel that there actually is a lot of loving people out there. So many people thet you feel you know, even if not even their name, even if we will ever meet again. And our camp was lovely, under a tree that gave protection from the sun and all lovely calm respecting, kind, sharing people.

I had to accept loss of goodies, feelin sick bot fysically and mentally the first days, not being able to let go fully. But then after a couple of days and some healing medicine I was really go0od. Better than before. Being able to push push push through destructive thoughts and just enjoy. I just wish sometimes I was better at showing love. In a simple way, just acting out of love in love from love.

Me and V selling our creations

BREATHING WITH THE TREES. Reaching the overlooking perspective.

Have you noticed how easier everything is when breathing slowly?, one long breath instead of 2 short ones. Something I learned on Ozora also that has been integrated with me. Just breath and the time will stretch, the focus is more clear, energy doesnt spill on each sides.

But just so you know. I love you! And so nice to meet you all, share this with you.

Crazy carnival trippie hippie shit!

Double rainbow. All colour united shining bright.

Budapest was alright and pretty beautiful, but veeeeeery BROWN, saw one black man, no muslims and where were all the gypsies? No I sure as hell wont go back. It was such a blessing to land in Malmö again and all this cultures mixed in one city. And I learned to love Sweden again. Appreciate it so much. I got a bit nationalistic there. Multicultural nationalist. And as a sign on the train home to Jönköping there it was. A double rainbow. Shining with all it colours.

o0o Arm warmers

2011-07-23T20:03:00.001+02:00

New Ilahinoor creation. Eco friendly arm warmers. For more info, welcome by my Etsy-shop ~ >>

Oil-pulling day 1

2011-07-08T11:26:00.001+02:00

I've just spit out my first mouth of Oil-pulling-oil. Feels..like I suddenly got a cold. I see it as a good sign. the detox has begun. I've used Extra virgin coconut oil. Sincetthat was what I had at home. Some say it works perfectly, especially with candida-detox, some say only sunflower/sesame-oil works. Will se.

This is suppose to help on so many levels. As I said Candida, that actually can give you depression, did you know that? Oil-pulling is also good for dry-skinned ladies like myself, gums and teeth becomes healthier and whiter. Helps with allergies, joint-aches,insomnia and so on and son on. You can read more here: or just google Oil-pulling.

I'm gonna try this out for at least 3 weeks. And let you know a long the way if this is something that works, and if so-how. Like I said I already feel something happening in my nose and throat, also a bit of a headache. That means detox.

And I will combine this with doing Ashtanga yoga. Had my first session this wednesday and it was reeally nice so I'll try keep on doingthis. Cause I do love myself, and want the best for me. And I have a goal with this also.. They are going to do a mala on the beach next sat and the next after that. Then they'll do 108 sun salutations (surya namaskara A and surya namaskara B)
What a dream to be ableto do this. I think I might be up to five or six haha. But a goal is good to have. I start with doing 10 today then will see :)

After that I'm off to a lovely food-market in Jönköping, buy those big ass garlic olives that you only find at these things. And then I'm off to mom, chilling there for a night and then we're off to Slöjdmässan i Hjo. Lots of artists that sell handmade creations.
And then back home, Mom will meet my man for the first time. I've given up to clean tha much so she feels at home, it's just impossible anyway so she just have to accept how it is. Well she knows me by now.

And then some of our beloved friends stop by and we will have a gardenparty, The boys will jam live I guess like they always do (i'm so lucky to hear great live electronic music at home almost everyday) I will dance, laugh and get som feminine talk. Feel the bass start an inner fire, let the melody move my arms.

But fo now, now is now. and I wish you a sparkly weekend full of self love.

o0o Free form transform

2011-07-04T18:14:00.000+02:00

I got inspired by this artist and created my own hanging candle holder. Using a recycled glass jar

Free form crochet makes it shine in a unique divine light

o0o Split personality.

2011-07-04T09:44:00.001+02:00

Why won't I always speak out of love?

Why don't I choose the most high answer?

Why don't I bathe in the highest vibrations, just pick out a sea and bathe in it?

Why do I choose the dew to swim around in?

If I act out of the holy, why aren't my actions holy?

Why does the world spin faster when the energy is low?

How do I explain to others that I right now have a split personality. One that acts out of understanding and love, and one that acts out of fear, assumtions and stress. The all seeing, and the blind one.

Can another person take that all in?

May I be bad as hell one day, and heavenly the next?

Will you understand and see my struggle. Will you let the hard words pass, see them for what they are and let them go. not kling to you,

Or will you think I'm crazy. Hating you one day, loving you the next. Will you choose the higher ground to choose from. Or will you choose something in between or let the deamons get total control? Will I get slapped in the face or loved even more?

What kind of evidence am I looking for? Am I convinced the world is a shitty place, I will look for evidence on that, If I'm convinced the world is a loving place, I will look up evidence on that. If I'm convinced you are a bad person, then I'll probably search for evidence that you are a traitor and a bad person. It's in me. I have to workout how I wanna percieve you, how I want to see you, belive you and therafter I will look up evidence that state my case.

Concious choices.

o0o One should always meditate. Be mindful.

2011-06-29T14:56:00.000+02:00

One should always meditate. Be mindful.
Something that seems so big and scary in the dark, turns in to a very cute, little, scared mouse in the spotlight from a shining third eye.

I had an amazing experience in the hammock today. I really felt how my energylevels shifted so clear. From anxiety over to pure bliss. I just talked low to myself of what I saw, without judging. A Big tree with sun shiningg through the leaves leaving diffrent shades of green. 3 red flowers in a pot, green grassfields and a butterfly.
I hear a bird twittring, A bee passing by. I feel my body sinking in to the hammock, letting go...
And BOOM I was there. Anxiety gone, ME there, in that moment, feeling so light. swirling around, the wind passing through me, taking whatever thoughts with her. Stillness. Breath, At peace.

I think. I wish. What if me and everyone on this planet had this state of mind (heart?) every minute, everyday, all year around. Or at least before making BIG descisions. That would be heaven. To have that perspective on your thoughts and actions all the time. To feel that bliss in your heart and act thereafter.

Not like so many other times; act out of dispair, restlessnes or whatever.

Yes I'm writing to you but mostly myself. I still need to be reminded. reminded to take care of myself.
My soul.
Reminded to take those small everyday steps towards freedom, extatic pulsating happiness and tragic fucking days without breaking down, just feeling, being love.

I do hear I have changed a lot though :) So remember, even if you might not see your progression at all times, others near you surely do.

õ0o Sailing away with the pirates Sensual summer

2011-06-25T16:59:00.000+02:00

Go0od morning

2011-06-24T10:08:00.003+02:00

good night

Balkan-dub

2011-06-24T10:00:00.000+02:00

o0o New Ilahinoor creations

2011-06-23T17:23:00.000+02:00

o0o Pudu!

2011-06-21T12:22:00.000+02:00

I want a Pudu! So qute.

Deamon dance

2011-06-17T11:46:00.000+02:00

Ilahinoor brags about herself

2011-06-17T10:21:00.001+02:00

I absolutely love myself, and my life right now. I have met my biggest fears, and I have overcome them. Now I'm just curious what fear to meet next. You don't fight fears, you just meet them, greet them and let them go.
It's an amazing feeling being able to stand in front of the mirror and being able to say kind words and affirmations to myself, really enjoying what I see. Meaning every word. I am courageous, I am humble, I am holy, I am beautiful, I am strong, I am divine. I'm curious about life, because I know I can handle it.

My man that loves me so deep. Like a rock of everglowing radiating love.
That cooks amazing vegetarian food for me every day, that even stops cooking with pasta and other flourbased food for my little tummies sake. Little things he does, without me even asking, like putting the bus-card on the table at night so I don't have to look for it, stressed out in the morning. Little stuff like that grow big in my heart.

And I'm so great greatful for all the new friends I have met. Friends that are so loving and kind. So totally opposite. And I can let go of every drama I've had before in my life. I can see how it started, I can understand, and I can forgive and I can let go. No need to talk about it anymore, no need to be provoced. They live on that shit, meanwhile I die. It's an easy thing to throw away really, when the other roads lead to much happier places.
I'm so happy I can wish them well. It's more than they can do apparently. But it just shows, I've been the bigger person through all this and I love myself for that. So proud of myself.

Maybe I should change the name of the blog to Ilahinoor brags abut herself. ;) But yeah I think it's very important to brag about the good stuff about yourself. Because if I feel good, I will treat others good.

Time for food and meditation.

Btw is my english ok? Or should I start write in swedish again and let people just googletranslate?

Butterfly moment

2011-06-03T19:55:00.000+02:00

butterfly moment

first on my right foot

then on my left foot

over to my right shoulder

flew up and sat down

spot on

my third eye

Aurora

Pennyroyal drink

2011-06-03T19:10:00.000+02:00

Cloudberry wine,

frozen blackberries

frozen strawberries.

pennyroyal

best drink I've ever tasted!

Ten of Pentacles

2011-06-02T17:19:00.000+02:00

Fulfillment. Satisfaction. Completion of a happy cycle and a good ending. Deep connection with family, friends and community. Celebration that goal has been reached. Enjoy this moment for you have worked hard for it. Get-togethers and parties. Let go of your burdens and the time to carry them is finished. You have found the love you have searched for. Retirement.

I love tarot-cards. Just because what's inside me always shows so clear in the cards. And I miss my deck. My own deck to read the vibrations around. I wish for a new one.

Have you noticed, how life is manifestating a lot easier now. What the heart wants and needs the heart gets. Next-next weekend I'm moving my ass upnorth in Sweden to where my ancestors come from. To a place I've wanted to visit for years now, because of the self-sufficient village there and the habitants living,creating loving there. Buildng earth-ships and just learning about permaculture and such. And now me and my love are going, he's gonna play psychedelic sounds and me, I might be dancing or creating- who knows. Life is just so good right now.

If I

2011-06-01T19:03:00.002+02:00

2011-05-25T15:26:00.000+02:00

I think I'm ready to write here a bit more often again. There's so much happening in my spiritual and creative life that I just have to write it down. But can you fuse creativity, making a name and at the same time write about your privatelife? I really hope so, cause I can't be anyone other than me. And I'm working with myself, my traumas at the same time as I'm creating.

In my therapy I'm working on acceptance. To be Mindful. To accept traumas, feelings, that feels like they are going to kill you ; until you accept. Observe. And just be. This might sound easy at first but to truly do it in the eye of the storm is a whole other thing. I guess I just have to accept, some people just wont like me. That's no fun, I wan't the whole world to love me my ego says. But it's not the way it works, so I accept and it feels.

A new creation has been born out of my artistic concioussness. I feel I'm closer to my artistic heart nowadays. I don't think what people might like or buy even a bit anymore. I just do, I paint with yarn and textiles and if someone likes it-it's a bonus. And of course as soon as I uploaded the picture on Facebook- I had a buyer and then three.

French Fringe top
Crocheted and sown by hand
in upcycled/recycled materials
Made with creative passion

Electrock'nroll

2011-05-18T15:41:00.000+02:00

!!!

http://soundcloud.com/thecp/the-desire-for-desire

!!!

About me, who is (not ? )she

2011-03-27T13:19:00.000+02:00

1. You´re constantly seeking for: My lifes purpose

2. You have a closet full of: I don't have a closet

3. You never wear: high heels

4. Pants or Skirts: leggins
5. Flowers or Chocolate: flowers
6. Movies or Music: movies with great soundtracks
7. Romance or Drama: Romance without drama does not exist
8. Pop or Rock: Rock

9. Summer or Winter: Summer!
10. You never leave the house without: checking up on my cat

11. You always have in your bag: sunglasses, money, phone
12. Breakfast girl or Dinner girl: Love breakfasts!
13. Best Dinner: Vegetarian prasadam Tapas
14. Enjoy: Dancing free barefoot to trancendental music
15. Buy a lot of: Food and second hand

16. Have a thing for: little boxes
17. A Pleasure: spooning my cat
18. A Dream: To live free in harmony and peace, being creative, the artist that I am, being able to be generous and live in a great earthship.
19. A Wish: To be more corageous
20. Couldn´t live without: fresh food
21. If you could turn back time, you would be: I'm more of a future girl
22. Describe your style in a few words: shiva-punk-pixie-hippie-gypsy
23. Describe Yourself in a few words: A spiritual creator with lots of ideas. A Gardening-loving shamaness
24. Do you believe in love at first sight?: Oh yes!
25. What does your name mean: Divine light
26. Favorite Word: shanti shanti

o0o ***

2011-03-20T23:57:00.003+01:00

o0o Bass(ically) Therapy

2011-03-15T12:37:00.001+01:00

I love this heavy bass root reggae. Perfect way to start the day off with a big smile.

o0o She plays the Cello

2011-03-14T20:16:00.002+01:00

I've stumbled upon one great and totally amazing artist today. She moves me. I love her music and allover vibe. Her name is Zoë Keaton. Enjoy!

o0o And the wise man said

2011-03-09T20:59:00.002+01:00

“Think for yourself and question authority”

Timothy Leary

o0o Forever psychedelic

2011-03-09T17:02:00.000+01:00

o0o What did u ask me?

2011-03-09T15:25:00.002+01:00

And people wonder why I'm a vegetarian. And this is just one of the reasons

o0o Me is never free unless u call me everybody

2011-03-09T13:15:00.000+01:00

o0o Concert

2011-03-07T13:42:00.001+01:00

This saturday I went with some very good friends to Gothenburg. Roadtripping and singalong to Bob Marley. I loved it! We stopped by This rustic and laid back reastaurant called Solrosen which has vegetarian food and chech beer. What more can u ask for right. Then we headed to Annedalskyrkan and enjoyed a concert with Carbon Based Lifeforms. It was really cozy and beautiful as you can see here.

With Love

o0o Tree of life

2011-03-07T12:55:00.001+01:00

Life goes on ~Livet går vidare ~

2011-02-26T18:13:00.002+01:00

I hearby invite you to my new blog Gröna Vågen, where I fokus more on my passion for gardening, fleamarkets and creativity. Stop by and say hello if you feel like it.

Jag vill härmed bjuda in er till min nya blogg. Gröna Vågen Jag skriver om min passion för trädgård, loppis och kreativitet. Titta gärna förbi och säg hej.

o0o Gypsy Caravan

2011-02-01T10:24:00.008+01:00

A brief look into Romani culture and Rom (Gypsies) from around the globe as five famous Romani groups tour the USA. The film visits their families at home in Spain, India, Macedonia and Romania.

o0o LSD

2011-01-26T17:41:00.001+01:00

o0o Give thanks and praise

2011-01-26T17:36:00.000+01:00

o0o Sunrise...Sunset

2011-01-23T13:13:00.004+01:00

o0o Ego-allergic

2011-01-18T18:09:00.001+01:00

The more I get aware of my own ego, the more allergic I get to other peoples ego's. I see them trying to sound better than everyone else. How they got the best boyfriend, job, values whatever. That does not interest me, just fucking be, just be.

o0o A visionary artist, not a seamstress.

2011-01-17T09:12:00.004+01:00

Sometimes you have to accept you'r weaknesses to be strong. I had to do that this week. I've had an order on a top for a long time. It has given me anxiety, I wanted to create something perfect for this lovely woman. But the days and weeks past and I did nothing, not even worked on something else. My creativity had died I almost thought. I felt really bad when I realized this is not going to work, and I mailed her.

I wrote that I have just realized that I can't do orders. I cant let anybody else's visions come and interfere with mine. Working with expectations. I never use patterns for my creations they are just born, from vision, from going with the flow. Creating.
I said I was sorry but I couldn't do it. I don't know if she understood, and I don't blame her för being a bit pissed off but I had to be honest. I'm a visionary artist not a seamstress. I had a clue before, but now I know. Being able to take orders would have been so much easier, but that just ain't me.
And now my creativity is back! I believe I still can create perfect creations, that will find it's happy owner anyway. They will attract eachother. And now one gourgeous woman sits in NZ with my creation and tells me she loves it. Like all the others do and sometimes I almost can't believe it's me, I have done this, I make people happy with my art. And all my goddesses wearing them makes me so, so. thankful. I love doing art, but I have to do it my way.

Now I'm off buying beautiful silver rings and pendants with gems to come along on the road to accessorize my creations this summer. See you out there ~

o0o Dear Gypsie

2011-01-11T17:09:00.003+01:00

There is one kind of music that just grabs a hold of my heart.

I can hear, I can feel
all the romance, all the tragedies that followed. The sorrow, the courage and joy behind those tears. The fierceness of the strong woman. The music played by generations of extraordinary musicians. The wonderful bass-line. It's magick. It's Gypsie-music and I adore it.

And if you're interested in magick gypsie-spells you can always have a look here

o0o Horses

2011-01-11T10:52:00.005+01:00

Horses keep showing up in my life and they open my heart. These lovely, loving creatures that come with a sence of freedom. To let go of thoughts and patterns that hold you back.
I feel especially for two horses that my neighbour has. They are old tinker-horses with flared legs and dreads in their hair. One big and one really small, and their always together.
You can really feel their sacred energy oosing out from them. Effecting me, to become still and to open up my heart and recieve their great gifts.
I also watched The horse boy the other day. That whole movie is just pure love. I cried and I laughed. It is one of those movies you just want everyone too see. It really moved me.

I love horses.

o0o

2011-01-08T20:47:00.006+01:00

o0o
~universe ~
o0o

o0o Changes

2011-01-08T11:04:00.003+01:00

Metamorphosis is a biological process by which an animal physically develops after birth or hatching, involving a conspicuous and relatively abrupt change in the animal's body structure through cell growth and differentiation. Some insects, amphibians, molluscs, crustaceans, Cnidarians, echinoderms and tunicates undergo metamorphosis, which is usually accompanied by a change of habitat or behavior.

I'm going through changes. Massive ones. It's hard to focus on anything else but the spiritual growth right now. My creativity has to stand back. It feels stressful but I believe that after my rebirth there will be new visionary artworks that will blow everybodys mind. Cause the aim and energy in them will be even clearer, filled with even more love and higher vibrations. I just have to accept that this takes a lot of energy now, but the outcome will give me endless energy back.

I drew a Soul destiny card today and it says:
The guidance you are now receiving is truly Universal. Take time daily to connect with your guides and Angels. They wish to connect with you as much as you wish to connect with them. They are working very closely with you and you are being encouraged to... journal at this time. This is a Great story you are writing. It is your personal story and it is unique to you and only you. Write poetry to express the emotions you are feeling. Write down your dreams and synchronistic events that occur. This card calls for putting your connection and experience with Spirit into writing.

And yeah I feel it's like this too, and I don't want to forget, so I'm gonna try to keep a daily journal for those miraculous moments. For instance. Todays date is 0108 and 108 is a very sacred number. I'm guessing the journal is going to fill up real soon. Feels like there are magickal things happening everyday now. Do you feel it to?

But also really tough challenges that you just have to stare right back at and smile. watch it all happen from a distance. And that's when you really grow.

o0o Sri Yantra Tattoo

2011-01-07T09:55:00.008+01:00

I've been thinkin a lot of getting my first tattoo. It's been in my head to do one since early teen-age-years, but I have never found exactly what I want. But now I think I have. And the pain does'nt scare me anymore either. I've felt so much psychological pain that I don't think any fysical pain can hurt me anymore. It will just feel, and I will feel, but not react. Just like in every day life. I'm Thinking the Sri Yantra either in my neck or two at my front shoulders, or at the wide part of the lower arm.. What do you think?

The sun is blinding me through the window; and today I feel so blessed.

o0o Two very important movies

2011-01-04T13:05:00.004+01:00

I got pleasantly surprised by this movie, The lives of others it was really, really great! A long film where the story builds up over time. Bits and pieces put together, becomes a fantastic whole with a great ending.

I feel it is a very important film too, since we in these time seem to have forgotten what have been going on in history, so late as in the eighties, people and especially free-thinking artist could get Stasi surveillance just by reading the wrong newspaper or speak freely about their thoughts on the regim. Do we want this back? Then why did we let the Berlin wall, fall?

Another movie that I've been looking forward too was D.M.T- The spirit molecule. I feel it's such an important film. To spread the positive message of this wonderful medicine. But I can't help to feel a bit disappointed. I feel they could have done so much more of it.

More about the history througout time, more whitnesses, more live-experiences inhaling D.M.T. More spirit. Have you seen it and what do you think?

Hopefully it opens up to a whole new world of documentaries of this kind.

o0o Let me tell you my truth

2010-12-28T15:42:00.004+01:00

There is really no need for any other medicine.
I was lost in the ego-illsuion, but now I am found. I am.

Deamons are not a part of it, nothing to be accepted or embraced. When I thought there was no other way out than dying, I killed the ego instead. The deamon that roared in my ear so loud I thought the illusion was mine. My reality.
But my sha~man showed me the way. What a great gift.

o0o Prince Rama

2010-12-15T15:12:00.001+01:00

I've found a great new band, straight out of Brooklyn! Of course. I'm in love

o0o I'm alive

2010-12-03T15:55:00.011+01:00

I am here. Moore than ever. I'm taking a lot of photos right now and have created a couple of items for my Etsy-shop. If I don't keep it to myself. Somehow I have wanted to keep all of my creations for myself lately. Maybe cause I know I can't find anything like it ever again. I made this amazing Moss green skirt with the help from the machine. I love to create with all this tools. Sewing-machine, camera, crochet-hooks in all these forms.

I love my life right now, it's an neverending beautiful winter fairytale outside. In my heart it's warm and a lot of soulsearching going on. Remembering things I've done wrong and forgive myself for it and search in my memory for people that have acted the same way against me and forgive them too.

I've hung out with lovely, kind and generous and fun people. Laughed my ass off. And I'm still crazy in love. With both boyfriend and cat.

Hope you enjoy the photos, they are formed from my heart in companion with mother earth as in All I Do.

o0o Guiding Star

2010-11-28T14:37:00.000+01:00

2010-11-27T09:46:00.003+01:00

Iced Tree
That's how cold it is here.
Snow up to my knees and more.
I'm taking my snowracer to the car for sure
Today I'm off to different flee-markets with Lovely Fifi.
Time to find treasures

o0o The ones to love

2010-11-26T14:38:00.006+01:00

o0o Karma

2010-11-26T08:56:00.005+01:00

o0o In Deep

2010-11-25T16:14:00.004+01:00

Yesterday was pure bliss

Chanting vibrations manifesting

A flow of happiness that opened doors

in real life and in perceptions

Peoples kindness

Genuine laughter that was a bit too loud

A sparkle in my heart

I stand in awe of Gods miracles

After rain comes glorious sunshine

o0o Romantic

2010-11-22T18:05:00.003+01:00

He's the most romantic man I've ever experienced. In real life or on film. And he's mine.

o0o Free

2010-11-20T15:05:00.003+01:00

Magical things have happened

The power of dreams!

The power of chanting!

Started a new project yesterday. A freeform crochet artpiece. Haven't decided yet though. If it's going up on the wall or to become a vest. Maybe I'll just give it to Siri. That diva needs a luxorious bed.

o0o No more bitterness

2010-11-18T18:25:00.002+01:00

Soon her beloved soulmate comes home with pizza and chocolate...

And movies for her tainted soul.

No more bitterness only sweets

o0o Hare Krishna

2010-11-18T18:21:00.001+01:00

Chanting, can't hurt right?

Hare krishna, Hare krishna
Krishna, Krishna
Hare, Hare
Hare Rama, Hare Rama
Rama Rama
Hare, Hare

o0o Pink

2010-11-18T16:40:00.000+01:00

o0o Dispair

2010-11-18T16:09:00.000+01:00

I shrink. No room for little monkey in this world.

o0o Sprout pants

2010-11-16T17:38:00.003+01:00

Love these sprout-pants!
http://www.ilaniowear.com

o0o Purple haze

2010-11-16T17:18:00.005+01:00

http://kelseyscreations.net

o0o Handbook of Psychotropic Herbs

2010-11-16T13:45:00.001+01:00

Anyone read this one?

o0o Eat Pray Love

2010-11-14T15:31:00.004+01:00

We just saw Eat, pray, Love and I must say I'm disappointed. I thought the book was more. MORE. I felt they lost everything that I thought was the best about the book.
But still, it does inspire. That part about smiling with your liver.. I love that, it makes me smile with my whole self.

R is making veg lasagna in the kitchen fire-oven today. Sometimes I wonder if he's a feeder ;) Once an old jugoslavian woman told med: Ellinor you cook so good food, someday you will make a man, very happy. But now it's me who's served delicious vegetarian amazing-tasting food everyday, and it sure makes me happy.

I'ts easier to choose good thoughts today
I choose to send off some divine Love.
To breath slowly, enjoy the moments between breaths
and enjoy the silence, stillness and peace

o0o There's ups and there's downs

2010-11-14T10:19:00.004+01:00

Go0od Morning!
I sit and read some really interesting stuff written by a man that used DMT, and now he can't go back to seeing the world as he used to
Gonna put on some coffe and eat knäckebröd with a lot of cheese. Is it just in Sweden we have Knäckebröd? Hard thin bread?

quiet mornings with bird encounters
zipping
reading
day dreaming
deep breathing
Listening to good music

I can see the light and laughter again
It's not easy being an sensitive artist. But I would'nt change it for the world.

o0o Rhymes of an hour

2010-11-11T11:32:00.002+01:00

It's like I'm Off-beat

My mind is on repeat

Need to go to a retreat

Before it's too late, and I'll be packing heat

Take a seat

and listen

o0o DANCE INTO ANOTHER DIMENSION WITHOUT TENSION

2010-11-09T17:10:00.004+01:00

o0o Self worth

2010-11-09T15:55:00.001+01:00

Apparently there is many different opinions of who and what I am.
I stick to believe that I'm fucking awesome!

o0o Ilah.. Allah hu Allah ha Elohim

2010-11-09T15:50:00.002+01:00

o0o Insight

2010-11-09T10:52:00.002+01:00

I never knew how easy it was to love myself; until I got rid of you.

o0o The dog days are over

2010-11-08T16:00:00.001+01:00

o0o Advice dilemma

2010-11-08T12:55:00.001+01:00

It's easy to give advice. But why do you do it? To make the other person feel better or to make you feel better?

o0o Intuition

2010-11-07T18:41:00.004+01:00

Intuition so clear

clouded by demons veils

I embrace you now

please forgive me for not believing

Stay with me anyway.

A new day is here

I have nothing to loose

I've lost myself and found my way back

to you

all seing

I know, I knew

acted otherwise

wanted to be a good person, one who accepts and forgives

but that only drove me further away from myself

my truth

I wont hold it against you. Your are not you'r actions

I know you know, and I know you will beat yourself up for this

Like all the others do

I'm nothing you want to loose

And finally I see that too

I'm not asking you to understand how I feel and think. How could you?

You never even asked.

I'll continue on my path

many will try to get me to think like they do. Cause they think they're right

But I know my truth

And from now on, it's only me, only me.

o0o Why?

2010-11-07T13:04:00.003+01:00

Trying to focus on what's positive in my life. Still the sadness overthrows me

It seems like all the ego- drama has to be quiet down before the happiness can be heard and experienced. But how do I do that when I stumble into and try to help friends that turn out to be my enemies?

o0o Divine Moments of Truth

2010-11-07T09:30:00.001+01:00

Remembering this nights spectacular starry sky and the

tribe at the fire.

One of them planting a fire-orb in my belly.

Transforming demons into playing children. Darkness into bright light;

that grew into surrounding my whole being.

I was healed.

I became whole.

o0o Wheel of fortune

2010-11-06T12:15:00.009+01:00

With Jupiter as its ruling planet, the Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, and fortune. Almost always good fortune. Almost every definition of this card indicates abundance, happiness, elevation, or luck; a change that just happens, and brings with it great joy.

o0o Intergrity

2010-11-05T18:32:00.001+01:00

in·teg·ri·ty

Integrity is a concept of consistency of actions, values, methods, measures, principles, expectations and outcomes. In western ethics, integrity is regarded as the quality of having an intuitive sense of honesty and truthfulness in regard to the motivations for one's actions.[citation needed] Integrity can be regarded as the opposite of hypocrisy.

o0o Happy Diwali

2010-11-05T14:44:00.006+01:00

May the Divine light from within; shine inside and out

o0o Erotic

2010-11-04T14:47:00.004+01:00

HOT HOT HOT

SEXY SEXY SEXY

ART ART ART

HOT HOT HOT
SEXY SEXY SEXY
ART ART ART

o0o Shanti

2010-11-03T16:31:00.002+01:00

Calm
Relaxed
Loved
Happiness
Loving
Shanti Peace Bliss
Fortunate
Unity
Abundance
Synchronized
Thankful
Spirit
Nature
Divine light
Faith

Serenity

Joy

Truth

Aum

Miracle

o0o Bass-headz

2010-11-02T13:11:00.000+01:00

Give me a heart massage please

o0o Goddess

2010-11-02T10:57:00.008+01:00

"Rebellion is the only thing that keeps you alive! "
Marianne Faithfull

o0o Etsy-finds

2010-11-01T10:32:00.002+01:00

Just bought some luxuary-items.
I think it's so wonderful you can find organic and handmade products like these. <<<
My feet needs to be pampered. I'm visioning me and baby taking footbaths together and gently rub eachothers feet afterwards. So cozy in front of the fire.

I will try out their deodorant too.
Never again I will put on some toxic shit in my armpits.
No; natural is so simple and so much better for me as a person and as a whole.

o0o Inspirational

2010-11-01T08:21:00.008+01:00

o0o Dazed and confused

2010-10-30T22:00:00.003+02:00

My Goddess! My throat hurts so bad!
Not much done more than watching 10 movies a day.
Happy Go Lucky made me smile.

R is making comfort-food. Puris. And Rooibus, blueberry-vanilla tea.

I'm spacing out in a fever daze ~

o0o Tasty

2010-10-29T16:43:00.003+02:00

roasted Italian bread
feta-cheese

walnuts

cherry-tomatoes
avocado
onion

garlic
fresh herbs
balsamic vinegar
oil

olives

chocolat

Ms G

I'm sick as ....
Throat hurts
but heart smiles. My baby cools off my forehead with his hand. My magical cat purrs on my chest. Cheek to cheek.
I'm blessed.

o0o Aphrodites child

2010-10-28T19:45:00.001+02:00

Tack Ms J for the tip. I think I might be falling in LOVE